It is amazing how the past can track you down in the present and even more stunning when it is not your past. I cannot believe I have to write this to you, but since you would not find brain for yourself, I need to look give you one.
You said that you trust her and may be you do. You trust her so much she has the passwords to all your email accounts and electronic devices, the pin codes to your debit cards, the keys to your house and spare keys to your cars. So you trust her, but not where it counts. Sometimes I think you are upset that the girl that loves you enough to be with you is beautiful and a lady.
Why does she have to explain the reason she is ten minutes late to your date? Why can’t she have female friends apart from the ones you find for her? She has to check in with you every night before she goes to bed. You heard a guy’s voice in the background one afternoon and you tore down to her place without thinking. Her elder brother had is friend over.
You claim to value her and her opinions but only about what you are wearing to the next party or what would tell the world about how big you are. When was the last time you told her about your deep thoughts that had nothing to do with her body? Tell me how you would hide yourself from her and expect her to be happy that she’s with you. She loves you so she worries about you when you are down yet you would not even tell her how you feel with the shortest of words. She is bothered that she is the worst girlfriend ever; she thinks she is selfish because you would never share your thoughts and dreams with her.
She has to work hard to get any encouragement from you; she works for your affection. And for some reason I do not understand, there is always some random person somewhere that you can compare her to. Oh and she often falls short. On special days she either tried to hard or not enough to impress you. Your birthday has to be an extra effort, wishing to spend time alone with you is the worst thing she would ever do.
How dare you? You claim to love her, but you look at her through the shades of your past. Just because your last girl left you for someone else you assume that she has slept with every man that gave her a second look. So your mother left when you were young? Dude, I actually mean to be nasty but get over yourself. You are not the first it happened to and if you continue like this after you are both married, you would not be the last.
She is too precious to be doing time for other people’s crimes. Your friend messes up and you automatically attach a disgusting quality to her. I am not going to you how wonderful she is. But I know she works hard to show how much she loves you, even though I think you do not deserve half of it. She is always being sentenced before the sin. She is always to blame because you are protecting yourself from the rest of the world. You are not ready to be with her or any one. Grow up and take responsibility for your actions and stop treating her like you do not love her.
I am not telling you any of this because I think you deserve her, but if you do not look for a way to look at, see and appreciate what you have, some other guy would snatch her. Oh and do not think your best friend would not consider it, cause I know they would. If you are not careful she would stop hoping you would learn to do right by her, she would leave you. What part does she have to play in other people’s mistakes?
Guy, if her health deteriorates, I promise to blame you and if that ever happens, I promise to tell you this exact words “Good for her, remember I told you so”.
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