THE BREAK-UP

I walked out with the biggest smile on my face. I was grinning so hard I thought my lips would tear, if they didn't fall off first. I had finally done it. I broke up with them, or him, or it. Whatever men, I broke up with all of them.
 It's not that I was dating many people. Though that would have been nice; if maybe they were all rich, hopelessly in love with me and didn't mind sharing me. Fortunately or unfortunately, that's not the case.
 I broke up with yesterdays. I know you'll probably tell me that they are very important because they helped me be me today but I'm not forgetting them, I'm just letting them go.
 I broke up with the parents that belonged to yesterday. They probably annoyed the living day lights out of me, but hey they are still my parents today, and even if I disown them, they will still be my parents tomorrow. And let's face it, I LOVE THEM. O and I'll probably piss off my kids too.
 I parted with the course I didn't get admission to study. I still went to school and I have every right to say that I am a GRADUATE, and I know stuff someone else doesn't.
 I ended it with the job I didn't get. Well, I'll probably try again, but right now I earn enough to take care of me and my shoes, so I'm good and happy. Besides I sound really INTELLIGENT and IMPORTANT when I tell people where I work and what me job is.
I ditched the Assho- (I'm sorry I meant to say) guys I fell for or dated. "Hey it wasn't me, it was them". Not everyone can handle all my awesome. Now I can point at a really HOT guy and say 'I could have dated that, but he didn't just cut it'.
 I broke up with the friends that left. I think that was the best thing they did throughout our relationship. They realised I deserved better even before I did. Anyway I have the BESTEST right now and that's perfectly right.
 Best of all, I broke up with WHAT IF's, as exciting as they are to be with. I realised they tied me to my past and taught me to regret the things that made me the woman I am.
 Today I broke up with yesterday and I'm not rushing to meet tomorrow. Today and I are having fun now.
 Word of advise, get over your past, it already got over you.

Not for LESS

I looked in the mirror, who was she? I could not recognise her. Smile lost, eyes red and heavy with the weight of tears. I had drained my body of moisture to an unheathly level, yet every time I think dehydration is about to set in, the dam breaks, again.

 I needed a plan, needed to create a speech. But I could not hear myself think over the havoc the cannon of pain was wrecking on my heart.

 I often blame myself, I don't know how, but I must have messed up somewhere. I fell for him, and maybe that's the problem. I knew it was time to go, but it wasn't until I packed myself up that it hit me. I had given more than my heart, I had given all of me on a platinum platter yet I can't define what it was that I got in return.

 He wasn't mean, he was sweet, kind, and sometimes attentive. I had tried leaving more times than I can count but he always acted and spoke right. Well today my heart found a brain, and mine got fed up. I wanted and deserved more but I won't ask or beg. I'll take all or nothing not some or a little more than before.

 I picked up my bags to leave, then he walked in and smiled. He thought I was being dramatic again. He took my bags from me and and did it again. He said the right thing so I stayed.
I stayed to tell the truth. He had the best but refused to give it. I've given my best, now I'm taking it back. I'm leaving because I won't settle for less.